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LJ Idol IX - XI. Recency Bias

Recency bias is the assumption that the events that are happening now will continue the same into the future.

[Trigger warning]Trigger warning for implied pain managing techniques, but nothing explicit.

Background. A regular-sized room. The door is opposite the window. A bookcase in the right-hand corner near the window, another in the right-hand corner near the door. Unmade bed next to the wall in between the two. A computer table in the left-hand corner near the window, floor-to-ceiling wardrobe in the left-hand corner near the door. A cupboard full of fine china and glass "for occasion" next to the wall between these two. A long table in the middle of the room within reaching distance of the bed. Two chairs: one at the computer table, the other between the second table and the door. A poster of Joe Dassin on the bookcase wall facing the bed. Two printouts from the French declaration of human rights on the side of the wardrobe.

Most mornings, I wake up in my room and it's easy. Get out of bed, don't forget to bring the water mug into the kitchen for a refill, put the kettle on, have breakfast, shower, brush teeth, wash my eyeglasses, walk the dog around the house, go to work and come back in the evening. Most days, the routine is natural and predictable. Most days it is easy to forget the other days.

These other days, no two actions can be predicted; no two are exactly the same. Wake up. Assess position. I am lying flat on my back, this means getting out of bed will be challenging. Try to roll onto my right side slowly. Fail. Return to original position. Twist slowly to the right. Prop self on right elbow. Use left hand near chest region to push up higher. Plop back down, still slightly turned to the right. Drag knees closer to chest. Slowly put weight on right elbow, left hand and thighs. Push body upward straightening the right arm and balancing on the right hand. Push legs over the edge of the bed. Sit gingerly with elbows on knees. Attempt to straighten spine. Bad idea. Wiggle toes into slippers. Put both hands onto the table, move weight onto them. Stare listlessly at the clutter of dictionary - broken tablet - creams - manicure instruments - ear plugs on the table for a minute or two. Push self to the feet balancing with fingertips on the table. Attempt for the second time to straighten up. Almost succeed with one hip slightly higher than the other. Walk two steps sideways to the door trailing the table with the fingertips. Raise left hand, put it on the back of the chair. Stare at the mess of clothing on it wondering idly when so many have migrated there. Change hands on the chair back. Use left hand to clutch the door handle. Step closer to the door. Change hands again. Grip the door frame then the side table in the corridor right outside. Walk to the bathroom step after step gripping door handles, walls and any and all horizontal surfaces on the way. Reverse the process and get back into bed. Blissfully go back to sleep.

24 hours later. Wake up. Assess position. Mentally groan at finding self flat on the back once more. Roll slightly to the right. Push self into sitting position using right elbow then right hand. Move legs slowly out of bed. Straighten up with hands on the knees. Wince slightly. Push self into standing with hands on the table. Straighten up successfully. Hunch slightly back down. Walk slowly to the door dragging feet, almost limping and gracelessly rotating hips to no one tempo. Stare at the chair back, door handle, door frame, side table in the corridor along the way puzzling over yesterday's necessity to use them as support. Limp to the bathroom. Reverse the process. Blissfully go back to sleep.

48 hours later. Return to regular modus operandi. More or less. Try to forget 3 days previous were spent they way the were. Swear to be more careful of AC drafts in the future. Project ordinary days into the future.

Note: the thing about back ache, it's unpredictable, or at least what I sometimes have is. Its location changes constantly as time goes on, and as it abates slowly, so movement becomes an interesting challenge that I turn into a game of sorts.


( 6 comments — Leave a comment )
Jun. 9th, 2014 05:22 pm (UTC)
ConCrit is welcome.

I never know how to use the articles correctly, so the description of the room is suspect here.
Jun. 11th, 2014 09:26 am (UTC)
*hugs* for the pain. It does make so much other stuff difficult.

Concrit-wise, I think you might want, "Assess position," rather than, "Access position"?
Jun. 12th, 2014 01:53 pm (UTC)
Yes, it distorts what you think of as solid reality, that is certain.

Ah, yes. Assess. Thank you for your help with this: it sounded somewhat wrong when I wrote it, but I couldn't put my finger on it. :)
Jun. 13th, 2014 08:40 am (UTC)

You're welcome. They're super close in spelling.
Jun. 12th, 2014 07:03 am (UTC)
You described the movements elaborately well..can guess the backache could be really tiring and painful. *hugs*
Jun. 12th, 2014 01:55 pm (UTC)
Thank you, I am glad it sounded close to the sensation that time slows down and the movements "weigh" more than they normally do.
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